Me....a generous visionary!!!
:))) whaddya know!!

Hello! :)

So we are back! And how has the new year been treating you? I havent been doing too badly..yeah, I havent exactly been keeping to my resolutions (who does!) but I havent strayed too far either. Now for a few quick updates..
A couple of you are pretty persistent when it comes to my marriage plans..so here it is..nothing happening as of now..and nothing till I feel like it...so dont expect sudden happy news from me just yet :)
I have, though, been getting things together for the portfolio and will start applying soon..a certain someone is worried that I am committing professional harakiri! Please dont be..I am totally focussed on this and nothing else for now.
This and the gym!
I am kinda overwhelmed by the concern I have been getting via this blog. And thanks to all those who called or mailed to check on me. I am doing quite ok..dont worry. Meanwhile, you guys take care of yourselves. Ciao!



P.S: Reiki man, at the rate your love life is going, you are gonna require reiki yourself soon!
Lala, stop feeling sorry for yourself and start empathising with your bride! ;)
OrangeShoe, are you out of your meditation mode yet? Can we have some fun now?

Closure

Another year draws to an end..
a little too soon, a little too purposeless.
I got nowhere I wanted to be, hurt people without meaning to and got hurt even more. I didnt learn from my mistakes, I couldn't even be wise..in short, a lot of regrets over 2007. I remember going through New Year's eve last year wearing plastic smiles, telling people that I was good, wishing that they would stop asking..I knew I had hit rock bottom, physically and emotionally..and it was a relief in a way...knowing that I could only go on to better things from here.
It didnt work that way..and a year down the line I am in similar shit. Even worse perhaps coz the novelty of new beginnings is wearing off. I cant blame anybody really..but I cant even take blame myself..I went by intuition. I did what i felt to be right. I trusted those I loved. I gave things a chance. Maybe that is where i erred. I should have stopped believing in second chances long back. Should have kept to myself and chucked out the emotions. Should have listened to actions rather than words...
But then,one is always smarter in retrospection.
And just like this year,some phases need to be closed..some explanations need to be understood and some conclusions need to be drawn..It will be some time before I make my peace with love and God (if ever)...It will take me time to get back to my usual sunny self. But for today, I put an end to all this hurt and regret, all the expectations and brooding and hopeless longing. Sealed and closed.

Five things about me

Which I am putting down here coz I am tired of repeating myself.

I dont like abrupt endings..
I detest lies..
I am very analytical..I usually sort out the bull-shit.
I rarely take to people very soon..but if I do, I trust completely and love unconditionally
I am all for love but love isnt probably meant for me

Reiki man

Some people make you feel good about yourself. Some give you a patient hearing. Most give you advice. But you give of your time when you would rather be doing something else..you dont flatter me, you know my flaws only too well. You dont give me any advice that you couldnt follow yourself. You hear me out even when it hurts you to..and you do it knowing fully well that I dont care like I used to...Just wanted you to know that it means a lot to me...

I remember how it began. I know how it ends. Why do I still have questions?

Ever happened to you?

Ever been on the verge of happiness one day and miles away the next? Ever been swept off your feet? Ever been swept aside? Ever laughed through your tears? Life has a funny sense of humour....