Reiki man

Some people make you feel good about yourself. Some give you a patient hearing. Most give you advice. But you give of your time when you would rather be doing something else..you dont flatter me, you know my flaws only too well. You dont give me any advice that you couldnt follow yourself. You hear me out even when it hurts you to..and you do it knowing fully well that I dont care like I used to...Just wanted you to know that it means a lot to me...

I remember how it began. I know how it ends. Why do I still have questions?

Ever happened to you?

Ever been on the verge of happiness one day and miles away the next? Ever been swept off your feet? Ever been swept aside? Ever laughed through your tears? Life has a funny sense of humour....

What say you?

Ever seen something that makes you cry "Foul!" ? That irritates you and puts you out of good humour? Something that moves you to your core and makes you wish you could do something about it? Makes you reflect on life and its vagaries?...The other day we got into this discussion at our place. Here is a summary..

1) Men letching..eve teasing..

Nothing else makes my blood boil so much. Men with filthy language and a filthier gaze..assured that they have a right in doing what they are doing..that there will be no retaliation..a woman crawling past them, eyes downcast, feeling exposed, ashamed..

2) Lack of civic sense..

Few things are more off-putting than the sight of civilized men and women showing utter disregard for hygiene..and other people's sensibilities. Spitting out of the bus window, mothers encouraging kids to potty at any available nook and cranny..Sure, you are tired..but cant you mange that short stretch and throw the wrapper in the bin next to you? Cant you wait till the next public toilet? Must every blank wall be anointed with your pee?

3) Beggars..the old and helpless elderly..
I pass by an old man sitting at a signal everyday on my way to work. He used to be accompanied by a grey-haired lady, but now he seems to be alone. He is in a tattered lungi and holds out a jaipur foot before him..probably as old as him..with holes stuffed with cloth and peeling paint.
What quirk of fate could have brought him to this state..has he been abandoned by selfish children? Has he been tricked and then lost, far far away from home? Are there people looking for him somewhere who care what happens to him?

4) Beggars..the baby carrying or worse, the God-worshipping, 'pay up or pay for your sins' kind..
This lot affects me in the reverse way..far from pity or sympathy, they stir up anger. You are hale and hearty enough to bear babies, for Pete's sake!! So why cant you get a job, woman? As a labourer or domestic help or even in the municipality..surely anything is better than begging? I shall not shell out money just coz you are dangling a picture of Shani! My relationship with God is my private affair..and I dont see how you come into the picture.

5) Fat, busybody housewives...
who consider themselves judges on morality and respectability. They will cast disapproving stares at your tight jeans but think nothing of parading the streets in their night clothes! Your sleeveless tees cause them to raise eyebrows but low sarees revealing unsightly bulges is perfectly acceptable, i guess!

6) Fat, self-important politicians...
self explanatory!

More later!

26 and done..

I know its kinda crazy to say this at 26 but I feel it.

Its not just about looking in the mirror and spotting crease lines on your face.
Or the fact that you start paying more attention to ads for "age-defying" cosmetics.
Not even that wherever you go, you invariably seem to be in older category ..surrounded by fresh-faced teeny boppers..

Its about knowing that some things are unattainable now..out of reach..
Everything seemed doable at 20-21. Dreams were ambitions then. Now in some cases, you get the feeling of having missed the bus...that the time to fly has flown..

Its in the understanding that all hurt does not necessarily heal..

True..you are wiser now..but not necessarily happier.

S P A C E ! !

I am almost obsessive about it. Imagine how I must be coping with three other mortals invading my space. Coz thats what it is..invasion. No other way to put it. If you think you can come barging in with overflowing suitcases just coz you are not in the mood to join your spouse on his foreign trip and I will smile and turn out my cupboards for you, you are grossly mistaken! And I dont appreciate your using my towel and I dont like clothes hung on my door.
And if you are the kind who leaves hair strewn all over the floor after every combing session, you are in for it.

Hide n Seek

Here goes...
I think S likes A (whom A met through M)..S liked M earlier but the latter wasnt interested..coz at that point she liked R..but S is nice. But A doesnt like S in that way.
Coz A is heartbroken over T..who probably likes XYZ by now.
SS also likes M. Atleast he keeps enquiring after her . But M thinks that SS is too dumb for words and will have nothing to do with him..Maybe S and M should get together coz now R is out of the picture and they will make a cute couple! Hurray!!